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Happy 4:20

Everyone!!!!


Have an amazing night!!!


~Icicle

So...I'm not dead; although, many might be skeptical...since I have been hibernating lately. I don't really have a good excuse for not paying attention to my LJ lately or even for not paying attention to all of my friends lately. I've just been so wrapped up in work and trying to get summer plans organized that I have completely lost touch with everyone. This is a bad habit that I get into that is also dangerous because since I focus so heavily on work, my mind goes crazy and eventually needs to lash out.

Unfortunately, my mind and body always seem to lash out by making bad decisions. Let's just say that I had a small black out this past weekend and was partook in a rather shameful situation. I'll probably talk about that more in detail in another entry when I'm not quite as pissed off as I am now. Let's just say, that I have once again reached the conclusion that men suck. For a while, I was beginning to believe that it wasn't all men...perhaps just most....but no, I've reached the conclusion that at least, every single man I've met, if not all of them, suck in one significant way or another. Even the nice ones can't be trusted. Perhaps I was mistaken, and the nice ones should be trusted least of all.


Anyway, I'm not going to rant about men tonight because I need to go to bed, but I do want to talk about one topic that I'm sure everyone is sick of listening me rant about--

Snow.

Anyone that has read a few of my past entries, has probably noticed that I detest snow. Still, I chose to go to university in upstate New York. What was I thinking? Well, I didn't always abhor snow, when I was young I enjoyed it and even before university I didn't mind it. However, this last winter has left me hating snow. There has been a huge snow storm here once a month for the last 3 months. The first one was on my bday Feb. 14, which wasn't that bad because although we had more than 2 feet of snow, classes were canceled. The second huge snow storm took place on the first Friday of spring break. Luckily, I had canceled my trip if not I would have been stuck in the airport for days like many of my friends.

Of course, I had assumed that had been the last snow storm of the year. We're in the middle of April right now, and every year around this time it starts getting into the 50s and 60s...definitely warmer. But I could not have been more wrong. I'm sure most people heard that a severe storm had hit the north east coast and had flooded many areas severely. I did not expect to be unaffected by this storm. I knew that it was coming today, but I never expected to manifest itself into snow.

I am not just talking about a light dusting of snow either. Today there has been more than 2 feet of snow on the ground! How is that even possible? It's fucking April. It's just unnatural. Not only that, my wonderful university, instead of canceling classes and exams decided to keep all classes open. I spent 2 1/2 hours helping my house mate try to dig out her car just so she could take an exam tonight. It was absolutely absurd. There should be wild flowers and rain in April...not snow.

What ever happened to the saying...April showers bring May flowers? At this rate, there will be snow on the ground until the end of the semester in mid May. I hope that no one else suffered from this absurd storm, especially all the poor individuals who had their homes flooded.

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On a happier note, I found a link to this sexy name generator on Lani's LJ. I decided to give it a try, and this is what I found out. You should all consider using this generator. It will give you a good laugh, especially if you opt to try the monster name generator instead. Thanks for reading.

Get Your Sexy Name

Hmm...well, I've definitely been in a brooding mood recently. It must be the weather. I had a dream last night that I finally finished my manuscript and at first it was accepted by a bunch of publishers, but then they all wrote me back telling me that they only accepted it as a cruel joke it was awful!

I can't believe that next year at this time...I'll be getting ready for graduation. I'm not ready to graduate yet. I have no idea what I want to do with my life yet. I have an idea but it's not practical. Honestly, going to college is supposed to help you decide what you want to do with your life not confuse you more.


Oh well, I guess I still have a year left to ponder. On a happier note, I found some really cute icons from potterpens. Check out that community if you like hp. Blah...I have to go do some more work.


~Icicle



"dark, gorgeous in an annoying sort of way."

-Buffy describing Angel when she first meets him...swoon

I don't usually like quizzes, but most, of this one is strangely accurate. If anyone decides to take this quiz, let me know if your results are accurate as well.

Your Birthdate: February 14

You work well with others. That is, you're good at getting them to do work for you. It's true that you get by on your charm. But so what? You make people happy! You're dynamic, clever, and funny. And people like to have you around. But you're so restless, they better not expect you to stay around for long. Your strength: Your superstar charisma Your weakness: Commitment means nothing to you Your power color: Fuchsia Your power symbol: Diamond Your power month: May

I'm a little bit sad today. I've been ecstatic these last couple days because the weather has been warmer and the snow has melted. Warm weather and sunny days always put me in a good mood. Still, I'm a little sad because I was put in yet another uncomfortable situation today.

Remember the person I talked about a couple entries back...the one I so desperately wanted to go out on a date with...Well, it happened we went out on a date, and it even went really well. But--like always, I lost interest. This person now wants to go out again this weekend, but I don't really know how to say no nicely.

I don't understand why this always happens to me. It's as if I'm incapable of having a relationship with someone. I always get really excited about people that I meet and I'll do absolutely anything to make them like me, but once they do the infatuation usually wears off rather quickly. Sometimes it's days, other times a few weeks...the longest is probably a month or so. This is not normal! I've only had one long relationship in my entire life. I know that it fucked me up a bit, but that was so long ago that by now, I should be able to move on and have other healthy relationships. Yet, I never meet anyone that keeps my interest.

What's wrong with me? I know that I've never really wanted to be in a relationship, but now I'm starting to fear that I'm actually incapable of it. Even if I meet the right person, I don't think I could actually handle a relationship. I value my space too much. Has anybody else ever felt like this? I'm a college girl...shouldn't I be pining over some guy that doesn't want to have a relationship with me? Isn't it odd that it's always me telling the guys that I don't want anything serious? I don't know. I'm just really confused right now. I need to go and listen to some more music. It's the only thing that makes me feel better.

~Icicle

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"I love you so much baby...but do me a favor and don't reply....cause I can dish it out, but I can't take it."
-Brand New

Spring Break is over and I'm depressed! They should definitely extend spring break, so it can be two weeks long. A week is certainly not enough time to recuperate from all the stress of college.

I'm actually glad that I wound up not going to Mexico because all my friends lost 2 days of their trip. The airports were shut down because of the snow, so they spent two days in the airport rather than in lovely Mexico.

I'm happy that I stayed with my city. I miss New York already...when I'm home people never tell me they think there is too much black in my wardrobe or nag me about chain smoking. I suppose that nothing surprises New Yorkers.

On the plus side, most of the snow has melted in Ithaca, it's a good start. I hope spring decides to stay and that there will be no more snow.

I hope everyone had amazing breaks!

~Icicle

I despise snow! I can never get away from it. I come home excited because there is no snow on the ground and today we get snow...granted it's nothing compared to the snow in Ithaca, but it is still snow. The snow followed me from Ithaca to NYC...some way to start spring break. On the plus side, I'm just vegging out and catching up on Tv and movies. I really hope this white shit doesn't put a damper on my break.

~Icicle

I have to learn to not leave my assignments for the last minute! I've had all weekend to start this assignment, but of course I did not. Granted, this weekend was incredibly busy, and I did catch up on a lot of other work.

It looks like once again I'm going to be up forever. Does one's body ever become accustomed to sleep deprivation?


I cannot not wait until this week from hell is over. I just found out I have an exam on Thursday. Yay, let's have a midterm right before spring break; therefore, I decided that school sucks, so I'm going to skip all my classes on Friday and go home a day early. Damn Ivy league schools with their high expectations.


COUNTDOWN TO SPRING BREAK...2 DAYS LEFT!!!

~Icicle

I just wanted to thank everyone that offered me some great advice in my last entry. A lot of people asked me why I'm not supposed to like this new person. It's a difficult question to answer. I suppose the main reason is because it is a not a person I ever would have seen myself attracted to, so it really took me by surprise. We are also both important members of each of our completely different social circles, which don't get along at all, so it would be extremely awkward and difficult for our friends to accept this.

Still, I went along with everyone's advice and asked this person to dinner. Luckily, said person agreed, but I just don't thing they'll think of it as a date. This person will probably think of it as more of a friendly dinner. I don't really know how to make a move. I have a lot to think about.

Luckily, Spring Break is only 4 DAYS AWAY! I'm counting down the minutes until I don't have to think about school for a whole entire week. I'm considering skipping classes on Friday, so I can go home a day early and avoid the congested buses. Anyone going anywhere exciting for Spring Break?


~Icicle

I haven't written in a long time and I'm sorry about that. I'm really going to try to update regularly now....even if it's only a short entry. This last few weeks have been insane for me. I haven't had time to do anything, but work! Work....work....work and other commitments...I've barely had any time to myself. I'm a very independent person and I crave my own space, so not having it for a few weeks now has driven me insane.


Since I last wrote, not too much has happened. Like I said, I've just been working a lot and I'm definitely ecstatic for Spring Break, which kicks off next week. I'm thinking of dodging my classes on Friday, so I can leave a day early. I'm not going anywhere amazing for spring break, but I am going home...and to me, going home to NYC for a week will be just as exciting. I was supposed to go to Florida, but my parents actually asked me to come home because they are going to be away that week. How sweet is that? I get to spend a week in NYC with my best friends and have an apartment all to myself. Hmm...the perfect after party spot? Although, I won't have warm weather I'm still thrilled about going home and finally being able to go out without fearing that my fake will be taken away.

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Actually, one exciting event has happened...I'm starting to like someone. Crazy?...I know, but I'm actually really starting to like this person and I don't know how to act. I'm the type of girl that gets really attracted to someone, but gets bored just as easily. It's rare if I'm still intrigued by someone after a couple of weeks, which is why I'm so amazed right now. I haven't actually been romantically involved with this person...yet...perhaps this is why I'm so fascinated by said person.

There's a problem though, this not a person that I'm supposed to like. No one would be happy if I actually got together with this person and more importantly I don't think this person has any idea as to how I feel. Furthermore, I don't know think this person would actually respond to me...if I did try something, which further complicates the situation. It's really hard. I don't know if I should just leave it alone or try anyway. It's just...like I said before, it's really rare that I like someone, but why did have to be someone that I'm not supposed to be attracted to? Blah!

I apologize again for not writing for a while and thank you so much for the lovely birthday comments I appreciate all of them. They made me feel loved! Leave me some advice on what you think I should do about my situation. I promise to start commenting again too.

~Icicle

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I am so clever that sometimes I don't understand a single word of what I am saying.
-- Oscar Wilde